My boyfriend

thinks I’m cheating on him.

 

Great.

 

 

P.S. I’m not

I’m such a gremlin.

Just like him so much.

I’m a bit scared

I don’t know why I do this. I’m shifting into another self destructive period, I can feel it coming.

The smallest things are throwing me off balance.

Is it bad that I plan? I like to plan, planning shows you care. But then it’s like things get in the way of your plans and then you feel pretty bad about it. It’s not even anyone else's fault, I shouldn’t plan. I should not plan.

 

Peace out Planet Earth.

So..

I’m meeting his friends tonight. This guy I’ve been seeing the past few weeks, rather intensely I should add, practically every day. Including the last 48 hours of constant contact.

I don’t know what's more amazing the fact he isn’t sick of me yet or the fact that I’m not bored of him.

 

Regardless, I’m extremely nervous. Meeting strangers is fine, meeting friends of friends is horrendous.

Push and pull.

I'm so emotionally labile right now.
It is a worry how easily my moods change. Only one think is making me constantly happy right now.

Is life supposed to be a rain storm with small patches of sunlight? Sometimes it feels it.

It feels it an awful lot.

It's so easy to hate.

It scares me how easy it can be to feel such a hate for someone. Maybe that's an exaggeration but just to feel dislike for someone based on such small things seems to happen alot for me. I don't mean to.

Maybe it's to do with jealousy, or feeling inferior. Who knows.

What does it mean?

Ever get hung up on tiny things that don’t matter? My advice is…

 

DON’T!